With the Oscars coming up this April, here’s a bit of Oscars history for you!
In 1999, up-and-coming actress Gwyneth Paltrow won her first Oscar for Best Actress in Shakespeare in Love at age 26. However, in an interview on Anna Faris’ podcast, Anna Faris is Unqualified, she revealed that everything was not as it seemed.
Before her win was announced, Paltrow didn’t expect anything much and was actually embarrassed about her nomination. In fact, Paltrow stated that she felt a sense of imposter syndrome because she thought, “I’m not even that good. Does everybody hate me?”
After her win though, she said that the attention she received became extremely overwhelming.
“I remember winning and feeling like the tide sort of turned, and there was this feeling of when you have that much attention on you and that much energy, it was really, really overwhelming,” Paltrow said.
It turns out, she ended up hiding in her parents’ house for three weeks after the win because the attention was so intense. That period in her life was incredibly lonely, even with her newfound praise. “It was the weirdest most surreal time,” Paltrow said.
Around this time too, Paltrow realized that she did not love acting as much as she thought she did. Part of this was due to the “intense public scrutiny” she faced as an actress in Hollywood.
“It’s so transitory, you’re always all over. It’s hard to plant roots…it’s just not who I am,” Paltrow said.
As of today, it seems like this sentiment has not worn off. In an interview with Harper’s Bazaar in 2020, she said that she will “literally never, never catch the acting bug again,” due to burnout.
Although you might not see Paltrow on the big screen again any time soon, you can take a look at her recommended shows and movies list and watch some of her favorites!