This Star Won't Go Out

"I have so many things to say. First of all, as a Nerdfighter who loves the fan culture of the vlogbrothers, I found this book to be incredibly awesome (see what I did there) I am so happy to finally read it, and hear from Esther herself. Especially because I’ve only seen bits and pieces of what I know from John’s vlogs and whatnot. And so to get to know Esther as the rest of catitude does is incredible because I was thinking of her as she was described by others and I loved seeing the humanity in her. She was so cute and I read the book through audio, so it was weird to hear familiar names (that I personally know) and be like “hey that’s my friend!” Anyway...Lori, Wayne, you are wonderful people who raised a great daughter who was really influential in making a lot of change both during her life and after her death. I keep thinking back to the weekend of Nerdcon: Nerdfighteria where John broke down during his closing ceremony talk regarding Esther and how we are present in the moment. He discussed the idea that Esther would have loved NC:NF because of the amazing connection everyone felt. Like you could sit with people if they had a Pizza John shirt on and it wouldn’t be weird. I find that so cool!!!! Anyway, as I come out of my stream of consciousness about my experience with the book, I just want to say again thank you John for teaching me to imagine people complexly. I finally got to see Esther complexly!!! This book was perfect with so much angst but also a lot of fun and emotion. Thank you Esther for blessing us."