If He Had Been with Me

"*WARNING THIS REVIEW WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS* This broke some many people's hearts and made them sob, it only made mine drop but didn't make me cry. I think it shocked me with that first chapter but by the end, I already knew what happened soooo....yea. Anyways, from chapter 2 and on, I really didn't know what was going to happen, it made me think okay how is this going to progress, how is everything going to add up in the end. I was constantly on the edge. I was very suspicious with Sasha and Jamie, there was always something there and I thought okay come on Autumn, be real here and see what's in your face. I knew there was something missing from the story of how Autumn and Finny "grew apart", it was shocking to finally find out that he had kissed her. Now, this is where my reasoning for giving this book a 4 stars instead of 5. THE MISCOMMUNICATION TROPE!!!! If they had only talked about how each of them felt for the other and within that moment everything else wouldn't have happened. All that time wasted and for what because she got scared, and he didn't talk to her? Seriously?!! It was sad that they only got the summer together and for one night have everything be perfect only for him to die. Honestly, I don't blame Autumn for wanting to be with Finny, it was unfair and she was depressed more. But that revelation of her being possibly pregnant was crazy. I feel really bad for his mom, but hopefully she was and she'll at least have a piece of her son. Now, I didn't cry, right? Well, apparently if you listen to the song "Ivy" by Frank Ocean right after finishing this book, you will literally be sobbing even worse if you cried before the song. I will be reading the next book, from his pov. I'm pretty sure it'll hurt a heck of alot more though."

"Heart wrenching but looking at the title I knew it would be. I was surprised at how I could not put this book down the storyline is so derivative, although I predicted the ending I had to know the details. "

"I thought it was okay honestly. I did not cry. By then I’m not a fan of kids talking about sex. It’s odd! And she wear a tiara everyday and she’s wondering why he’s wearing green socks at his own home?…. Yea, it’s forgettable!"

"Really beautiful book. Incredibly sad. I love the way the characters were written and how the story evolved. It felt perfect and beautifully sad."

"I liked this book but I didn't cry at the end and I didn't feel broken at the end which was disappointing."

"I got so invested in this story and I was so broken in the end. Quick, easy read. "

"Not a bad book, but it's way too hyped. Autumn's "not like other girls" way of thinking about herself was grating. I still think the ending was devastating in a good way from a storytelling perspective. But I expected more from this book. "

"Laura hates us 💔😭"

"I actually really loved the book. I’m a little mad about the ending though. The beginning was a little confusing, but after finishing it, it all made sense."

"The most heartbreaking book I’ve ever read, I read this while listening to the audio version. It took me about 2 to 3 weeks to finish it because I wanted to save it, and it was well worth it."